Monthly Archives: February 2012

RIP

踏入情人節半小時,阿爺便走了。  十個八個人圍在病床邊,連平日最眼淺的姑姐也顯得很冷靜。星期日晚吃飯,剛從加拿大回來的她才說打算下星期到韓國走一走,但擔心去不成,因為「好似話阿爺都差不多了」。30個小時後,就真的走了,很快。阿爺差兩個月便90歲了,很多年前中風後便不良於行。我已經忘記了,對上一次看見他健健康康、精神翼翼,是多少年前的事了。聽說他病了後,雖然身體機能大不如前,但每天早上還是坐定定實股市,心水很清。還有是以前外出吃飯之前,依然會很惡很有威嚴的命令我們要先上廁所。這就是我心目中的阿爺了,很封閉、很專橫跋扈,但白手興家,令家人生活無憂。昨夜他躺在床上,那麼瘦削,好像枯萎了一樣,我很難想像他過去十年患病的日子怎麼過。  對上一個與他帶點溫度的記憶,是很多年前在他家為他慶祝生日,姑姐們扶著他從房間裡行出來,他行得很慢很慢,動作很生硬,出來看到生日蛋糕,看到我們,突然哭了出來。我不知道,他會不會是想到有一天一切可能會消失,所以感到悲傷,還是看見我們很高興,所以哭了。  我沒有太傷心,整家人都好像沒有太傷心。我開始想,是不是有親人離去的時候,都可以這樣淡然就最好,還是好像太無人性了。 Advertisements

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HKAF 2012 – 野豬

Have to say I am a bit unsettled after watching this. So I have no voice and I cannot tell black from white because everything appears grey. Does it make me a criminal too? lol 

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heaven in hell

This is THE film I have been looking forward to seeing for quite some time. I am so looking forward to it that I have to just post the poster and the trailer here – just for the sake of … Continue reading

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